Making my life begin

Hello bloggers,
So lately I've had quite a few thoughts rolling around in my head. Along with the stress of being sick and getting behind in school and not being able to work two of my work shifts, I've been wondering what I'm going to do with my life. So I talked with my mom this morning kind of expressing my frustrations and such and she directed me back to my beloved task of making lists.
Here is a list of general goals.

• Research becoming a Sushi Chef to see if I really want to do it
• Classes
• Where
• How much
• When
• How long
•  How much does being a sushi chef pay?
•  Where would I work?
• What kind of hours does a sushi chef work and would I be able to do that?
• What would I have to give up to be a sushi chef?
• What would I give up to be a sushi chef?
• Apply for every stinking coffee shop and restaurant around here to try to get some kind of response
• Go to bed at midnight and don't touch my computer midnight and after
• Get caught up on schoolwork
• Eat three meals a day (preferably healthy)

These probably seem incredibly basic and pathetic that I have some of these on here but, you know what, this is my life. Get over it. I'm sure trying to...
So a general overview of my goals? Pull my life together so I can do something with it, preferably starting before the internship this summer.

What do you think interwebz?
-Melina Rose

The Green Malt Machine

Saturday was my last day of work in MN and Tortuga and I hung out after. We got some Taco Bell and then went to her house where I talked to Tallkid on the comp for a bit and we watched Criminal minds and CSI. I went home around 3am. (Tortuga lives a few blocks from me)


Today (Sunday) I was up around 9 something. I wanted to wear my cookie monster shirt so I paired it with my black pencil skirt and heels. I grabbed a cup of coffee and headed off to church with my Daddy. Since I am leaving here so soon, I sat with Bree and Christal. Someone from the college I eventually want to go to actually was the one who gave the word/sermon today! It was good. I have notes if ya want them :P
After church, my parents took me out to eat at Red Lobster to celebrate me getting my associates degree. I'm actually the first person in my immediate family to get a degree! The biscuits were fresh and absolutely amazingly delicious. I got shrimp scampi, salmon, and snow crab legs too! Mmmm. So good. :D
After lunch we went back home. Mom sang this morning at church so we had to drop her off at church to get the car she drove. Dad blasted music on the way back with the windows down and it made me smile. I will miss my parents a lot.
I was completely wiped out so when we got home I just went upstairs and climbed into bed. I didn't sleep but I didn't do anything that required me to think or move really which was nice. I watched My Princess which is a (good so far) Korean drama that I started a while ago. After a while, my momma came into my room and asked me if I wanted to go for a walk. It was pretty windy outside but sunny so overall I think it was nice.
It was a really nice walk. We got to talk about stuff that we used to before I was constantly rushing around and stressed; what we are thinking about a lot, boys, life, lots of stuff like that. I can't say how nice that walk was. I don't think I was smiling very much but sometimes you don't need to smile for something to be good.
After we got back, I got ready to go to a friends house. My small group from church was meeting to have a delectable encounter with the green monster aka an awesome old-school malt machine. It was great and I was glad that I could see some people before I leave. I left the party around 9pm since I was zoning out and no one was really talking to me and I just was tired. I said goodbye and went home. My parents were watching a movie on tv and invited me to join them but it was already part-way into it and I didn't really feel like it.
After a bit, my mom came up and asked if I wanted to watch a dvd. I said of course and we selected Ever After with Drew Barrymore in it. The movie finished around 12am and so I drank a couple glasses of water and brought some apples and honey upstairs with me to my room. Hopped on the computer and talked to Tallkid a bit as well as Sephre. I'm excited to see her! We planned out birthday stuff and talked about pandas and tablets and gothic lolita fashion that we both desperately want to buy. She went to bed around 1am and I guess I have been writing this post since then.
I plan to pack, clean, and hang out with a few friends later today (Monday)

Night night interwebz

-Melina Rose

Crazy Loco Life

Sorry I haven't been posting. I haven't really been reading the blogs I follow either. I just have a ton going on in my life right now and busy doesn't even seem to be able to describe it. I hope to be back to my once a day posts soon. We will have to see. For now we will have to make due with my highly sporatic ones. lol

I hope you are well interwebz

-Melina Rose

P.S. I graduate with my degree in a week!

Dear Betsy, (an entry in my diary)

March 20, 2011                                                                                                              12:08am-12:20am

Dear Betsy,
I'm sorry it has been so long since I have written, almost a year! I am 19.5 now. 5'7", 126.5 lbs and my hair (when straightened) is around an inch from ending in the middle of my lower back.

I am still going to (insert school here) through not for much longer. If I don't goof this up, I graduate in May with an associates in Graphic Design Technology.

This is not exactly why I am writing to you though. You see, I have been running. Not because I thought it would help; I knew it wouldn't, but because I was scared, terrified actually. When I graduate, and even before, I have a lot of foreign things to deal with. Interviews, Portfolio shows, deciding how I am going to accomplish my goals in life, all of these things just start crushing down on me and I feel like it is hopeless and it would be easier to give up. In reality, I know it isn't. It only would make it harder. So here goes nothing?

In the wise words of a fish:
Just keep swimming. :)

Night Betsy :)

Exactly a week

So it has been exactly a week since I last posted! How time flies!  I had a good break filled with trying to catch up with my Advanced Typography class, hanging out with friends that were home from college and just kind of lazing around. My parents 25th anniversary was yesterday so they got back on Monday from a week and a half trip. I had the whole house to myself.  It was nice. It was empty. It was quiet. I was glad when they came home though.
I am here at school again. I managed to go to my class that starts in two months.... lol. I have decided that after I graduate this spring I want to go back to college and get a bachelors degree.  My major would be English.  I really hope this works out and I am super excited to try living away from home and being completely responsible for myself. I figured, hey, I'm almost 20. I should know these things.
I still am having trouble getting to sleep at a decent hour so the past few nights activities include cleaning my entire room and then going to bed at 2, doing a load of laundry and a load of dishes and going to bed at 1:30.  Yes I have a messed up sleep schedule.
In other news I am taking Personal Finance this semester and I want it to leave.  I am pretty sure that this class is not meant for my age group. In the welcome audio clip online she started off with: 
"Whether you are saving for your first house, or saving for your kids education, or retirement......." 
I was like....uh.... I'm 19. I don't have kids. I'm not saving for a house and I am no where close to retiring. 


It should be interesting.


I should be getting back to homework interwebz


-Melina Rose