Hajimemashite.

Today was my first day of school at my new (community) college. I left my house at twenty to seven with a piece of toast and started out on my way to school. I stopped in at Caribou and got a small iced coffee with caramel in it before continuing on my way.
It was stop and go traffic so I got a good leg work-out with the clutch being such an active part of my drive. It was quite stressful but I wasn't unhappy. I got to school and had to go to the side parking lot to find a spot. Up a flight of stairs and all the way across the large building and I made it to my Public Speaking class two minutes late. He hadn't started yet. My heart was pounding from the stress and effort of carting my large backpack across the entire college.
An hour later and we were released. I ran and got my student ID number and then got my student ID card before going back across the campus to my Chemistry class. It is a very full class and honestly terrifying. I talked with a girl in that class a bit. Maybe we will be friends.
I had a two hour break before my next class so I went and found a spot by my classroom to eat my bento box lunch. Peanut butter sandwich cut into dinosaur shapes, green grapes, a strawberry and salad. I filled in all of the scheduling information from my syllabuses into my planner which took forever. After trying not to fall asleep for half an hour or so I went into the classroom. Class was exciting but intimidating. I had a hard time understanding the teacher but I have wanted to take Japanese for so long that my enthusiasm overwhelmed any feelings of apprehension.
Class ended and I went downstairs to pick up my textbooks. After picking them up, I walked to my truck and drove home where I promptly climbed into my bed with my laptop.
I don't have much homework assigned yet so I'm not worried.
I came downstairs after almost falling asleep sitting up and ate some mashed potatoes with cheese and chicken that my dad had made. The tv was on and we watched America's got Talent and after eating a bowl of cocoa krispies the show switched to American Ninja Warrior.
It is now 10:30 and I am more tired than I would have thought I would be.

I think I shall go to bed interwebz.

-Melina Rose

Take off

I'm tired. I close my eyes as our plane waits for it's turn on the runway. Another plane lands and we turn, lining up with the long stretch, streaked with black marks from incoming planes. We sit, waiting. The engines whine and we begin our quick, swaying journey down the designated route. I yawn as we lift into the air smoothly, feeling gravity pull me heavily into my seat. The city is so small from my window. Goodbye Minnesota. I yawn again as I settle in for our few-hour flight to California.

Long time no see

Terribly sorry it has been so long. I plan to keep up better as of now.

I've mostly working but I also took a trip to California to visit my Grandparents. I've had a lot on my mind lately. A bit to much to put here.
Oh! My birthday! Haha I almost forgot about it which doesn't happen to often. I worked, got off early, went on a walk by myself in a new dress I got, caught fireflies, named them, danced around in the dark yard like a dork, and replied to the posts on my wall. That's about it. It was a good birthday :)

Today?
Today I slept until 4pm. My body just needed the sleep I guess. I didn't go to bed late or anything.... When I got up I started a load of laundry, did a little cleaning, took a shower, wrote a bit, talked to a few friends on facebook, and texted my Daddy. My Aunt came home and I caught up with her a bit, brought some of my laundry up from the basement, and lazed around on the computer while eating dinner. I'm still doing that actually... *shrugs*
It's in the 90s outside so I don't really feel like going for a walk. (Even though I do feel like going for a walk.) You know what I mean.
I just remembered that I wrote a post on the plane to California... (I tried to sleep on the way home.)
I think I will find that notebook and post it.

Once again sorry for my absence interwebz

-Melina Rose

Hugs

Happy
Under-accumulated
Great
Special


Okay so that was a fail acronym thingy but....mmm. I want a hug. I got one from Sephre earlier but man, I'm just kind of bumming right now...

Hugzzzzzz. Wanttttt.

Ugh. I just....I just really want to be in Minnesota right now. I need to support my friend and I feel so helpless. I'm going to see her for just a little bit this Tuesday before I fly out to California but....ugh. This coming week is going to be really hard. I'm already emotionally exaughsted and I haven't even hugged one of  my best friends who's dad just died or been to visit my grandpa who is dying soon.

Death. I seriously hate you. With a burning passion.

All I can feel is sad though. I can't even be mad...

:|

-Melina Rose

I just miss you OK?!

Please watch in YouTube if you click play. It just is much better.

Yes, I realize my emotions are currently running rampant but I genuinely miss my Minnesotans.

I should go to bed....interwebz
Fighting.....

-Melina Rose

P.S. I'm having a blast with Sephre. I just have my moments. Don't judge.

But why are you here?

I worked 10-4 today. They decided to send the girl from Minnesota to find the store and get (a very specific kind) of burger buns. Haaa.... Came home really nasty from work and took the best cold shower ever. (It is/was really hot outside) Sephre got back and we did some stuff together and started dinner. She saw that I was exhausted and commanded me to go take a nap saying that she would wake me up for dinner.

This is what I've been told:

She came in to wake me up and thought I was kidding because I wouldn't respond. She yelled, poked, jabbed, made my phone ring and finally shook me rather roughly. Nothing worked except for the last one I opened my eyes. She told me that dinner was ready and all I said was "but why are you here?" LOL At that point she decided that I really needed the sleep and just left me there until I woke up by myself.

I honestly remember none of this.

Once I woke up I had steak, mashed potatoes, and green beans. For dessert, we had brownies and milk. We watched a movie about the life of Jane Austen and then Sephre and I went upstairs to work on catching up on vlog material. We have a ton to catch up but we put one together... I started my work uniform washing and it is in the dryer now.

I guess I'm feeling a little....something I don't know...I can't think of the right word to describe it. I just know that I'm missing people. It's not the "Oh I really miss people" feeling though. Ugh. Can't describe adequately.

I work later today (since it is past midnight now) and then Sephre and I are gonna hang out and do something fun. Not sure what.... lol Maybe we will go swimming? It has been storming since (now yesterday) evening and it is supposed to last through today. It has been incredibly hot every day this week. Always in the 90s. It is currently 63 degrees which is our low for today. I'm sure it will heat back up in the morning.

I'm going to sleep interwebz. Goodnight...

-Melina Rose

Shhhh I'm not awake

So I really should go to bed and sleep and such but I can't seem to feel sleepy. I leave for Wisconsin again at 8am and am scheduled to arrive at 11:11am! I like that arrival time :) I will have to fill you in on what I have been doing this weekend when I get back. I have more "free-time" there than I do here in Minnesota. It is really hard to try to see everyone in such a short amount of time! Here is the quick run down. I'll add more details later...

Thursday:
Wedding rehearsal
Went to bed around 12? *can't remember*

Friday:
Got coffee with Bree and Christal
Watched From Prada to Nada  with my mom
Wedding
Wedding reception
Stayed up late talking

Saturday:
Got up around 10am
Switched out cars
Picked up Mnonaa
Met up with Bree
Went and did Christals hair for prom
Went back to Bree's house and waited for people to show up
Went to an awesome park and hung out
Went to Chipotle where Mnonaa treated me :)
Said goodbye to Tallkid and then dropped off Bree
Drove Mnonaa home
Went home
Ate pie with family while watching Fair Game
Watched the end of my cousin winning a competition on tv
Went to Bob's house and hung out
Came home and sat on the deck with coffee looking at the stars and listening to the night sounds
Came inside and brought some of my stuff upstairs
Talked to Sephre and Tortuga online
Partially packed cool dresses to bring back to Wisconsin for photoshoot(s)

Sunday:
Should be asleep since it is 3:17 in the morning.....

Forcing myself to sleep though I'm not sleepy interwebz

-Melina Rose

and in other news I have 2,000 pageviews! Thanks!

I am back home as of yesterday :)

I landed around 4pm and my daddy picked me up :) We went home and he made his version of a chocolate cooler. (pretty much an iced mocha) It was very good. I had gotten up a little after 7am to bring Sephre to nannying and after eating breakfast there, went back to the house to pack and then go to her boyfriend's house. He drove me to the airport (Thanks!) and then I sat there for two hours until it departed. I ate some fancy trail mix and some cheese curds for lunch and then got on the plane. I arrived around an hour later and got my luggage; waited for him to come pick me up. I left for youth group around five or so and was very happy. I walked in to them singing I Will Run  and just felt the joy wash over me. I missed my youth group very much. After they were done with their practice I immediately ran over and glomped Bree. Maybe a little violently but I couldn't contain my happiness. :P We ran outside and swung on the swings for a while before setting up the food table for dinner. We had hot dogs, chips, and strawberry pie. Not healthy at all but very good since I was very hungry.
After dinner everyone went down into the amphitheater for their small group time and Bree and I cleaned up dinner. I didn't miss out on much since I'm going to be back in Wisconsin when each group is doing their stuff. I had fun cleaning up with Bree. I wiped down all the tables and the grill a little and she brought most of the stuff down. Then we washed the two giant coolers for the drinks and I managed to get us a little wet with the sprayer :P
We went upstairs for the word and then she went onstage for worship. Worship was absolutely amazing and I haven't felt it that strongly in a while. It was a great night. After, Christal and I went to Perkins with a bunch of other people from youth group. I went to Bob's house after dropping Christal at her home and hung out for  a bit. She slept over and we stayed up till two in the morning watching The Social Network. We didn't finish it all.
Sleep: A little less than 5 hours

Bob woke me up around 9. I am not sure why still. Dear, I needed that sleep! She was intent on getting me up though so we did. Mom made us scrambled eggs and we each got a strawberry. After finishing our movie, I brought her home (almost falling asleep on the way back) and crashed on the couch. Mom found me their and I went upstairs to take a nap. I got up at one I think not feeling any more rested than before. We ate some Kashi cereal and then went to Kohls, Bed Bath and Beyond, and Savers. I got another pair of pants for work at Savers. I thought it was funny that the only pair that fit the I tried on were Express ones and I had just been talking about that store the other day. (Yesterday?)
Anyway... We went home and I got ready for the wedding rehearsal. I realized that yes, I had packed more than one dress (thankfully) and ended up wearing a new (to me) black dress with a belt and my converse. My only color was my zipper earrings which I love. :P
I showed up to the place for the wedding and we ran through it a few times. It is going to be outside and it was super windy! I did a lot better at the song than I thought I was going to and I feel better about it now.
We then headed to the rehearsal dinner. The bride's friend and I got lost and were fifteen minutes late but it was all good. I had never been to Casper's before but from what I had they have good food. I had the Minnesota chicken as well as their house salad (which is AMAZING *cough* maybe I was just really hungry) and then strawberry shortcake.
I got home and sat down on the couch. My phone has been on low battery for a while but I'll charge it tonight. I had no energy to make an extra trip up the stairs. (Don't judge me :P ) My parents were watching an old movie. Something like love affair or something. I don't know. I sat on the couch working on this post while we watched it.
Now I'm chatting with Lysa, Tall kid, Sephre, Bob and earlier I was with St. but she got off. I really need to go to bed now that I've finished this post.
I have a headache and am already half asleep....
Sleep: A little less than 7 hours?

Oyasuminasai interwebz

-Melina Rose

Sorry to leave you on that note...

Also, sorry I haven't posted in a few days. I've been busy :)

Shoutout to Bob for giving me great advice regarding my "Thought overload" post. Thank you for being a great woman who shares my values and doesn't fail to remind me of them. :)
I am no longer worrying about those things (for now :P ) and am much happier.

To Ashley: If you want to know what is going on feel free to email me :)
crazyblondeindisguise@hotmail.com
You always make me feel so cared about when you comment on my posts. I'm sorry I haven't been on much. I hope to get back to reading your posts soon...

I did end up going for a walk that day :P It was raining, thundering, lightening and very windy but I was bound and determined to go for a walk. I needed an escape from my thoughts (or maybe into them) more than ever that day. I came back not drenched, but wet after walking less than half of my normal distance.

Sephre and I have been up to our usual shenanigans. We have done two photoshoots and they were both awesome. The first one was {Black} which happened to be freezing cold! The second one {White} was burning hot! We just couldn't win! lol

I will have to post more later but for now I need to actually go to bed. I drive Sephre to nannying tomorrow early and it is already ten 'till two in the morning!

I fly back home for the weekend today interwebz :)

-Melina Rose

Missing Minnesota...

I have no motivation to fill you in on what I did today really. 

I went for a walk today. I like taking walks; walks when it is sunny, windy, rainy, cold, snowy, mild. I like walks. They let me escape for a while. I don't have to talk to anyone or answer questions or tell people what I'm up to if I don't want to. I can just plug in my music and go.

Relevant lyric of the moment:

‎'Cause most things true

 
Are simple and complex 

 
So it is with You 

 
What else should I expect
 
-Caedmon's Call (Beautiful Mystery)

I guess the rest of the post is going to be in small type...cause it won't format....grr. It would...... *sigh* [Sorry]

Continuing onwards... 
I miss my Minnesotans very very much. I admit it. I was tearing up earlier. You see, today is Wednesday, and while I didn't realize it until this evening, it is important. Why is it important? It is important because I normally have youth group on Wednesday nights. I love the people there very much and it is killing me quietly to not be there right now. Don't get me wrong, I'm still having a great time here but being alone at the very moment when I am normally surrounded by people who make me happy?....It's difficult to be happy.
I'm not trying to mope. Honestly I'm not. I just miss people. Is that a crime?
On the other hand, I'm gone for two months! I'll be back! I can't move back as soon as I leave! I miss you too okay? 
.....Quite a bit.

Did you know that a human being is supposed to have 3 hugs a day to survive? ......How am I alive? I feel I may have been forcing hugs on you Sephre :/ Sorry :) Let me know if you don't want them okay? 

I forgot to post this while I was still saddish interwebz
I'm betterish now :)


-Melina Rose

Snowstorm of the century

So last night (10th) the news people were saying that we are in for the storm of  the century here in Minnesota.  It is supposed to rival the one on Halloween of 1991.  Well today there was over two feet of snow on our deck.  They keep calling it a blizzard.  People are stuck everywhere and they even closed the Mall of America early.
But I'm heading to bed now!

Don't get snowed in interwebz!

-Melina Rose

20 Things you may or may not know about me

I thought I would make this list of 20 interesting things about me. I saw it on V. Lavenders blog "The Lavender Ninja".  I really enjoyed it so I thought I would do one too. (I kind of followed her general things she talked about and/or just left some of the things that we have the same.) I hope it is interesting! If you have the time to do this on your blog, let me know! I'm excited to get to know you better too! 

1. I'm mostly Dutch but born in Minnesota USA (Minnesnowta :P)

2. I absolutely love clothes and shoes and makeup and stuff like that.  Funny thing that my parents told me though: When I was younger they wondered if I would ever care what I looked like or develop a style. Haha

3. I am fairly tall (5'7") but I wear heels as much as I possibly can.

4. I became intensely addicted to anime a few years ago and from there onwards progressed to korean dramas as well.

5. I was the youngest in my high-school graduating class and I was home-schooled my entire life until I started doing PSEO in high-school. (PSEO stands for post secondary education option and simply means you can take college classes in high-school for high-school and college credit)

6. I love a wide range of movies from Die Hard to She's The Man.

7. For my 20th Birthday I would love to find a forest and string lanterns from the trees, bring a bunch of blankets and pillows, lots of colorful decorations and put on a pretty dress for a picnic dinner. I have had this dream ever since I was little when I read the book (i think) called "Betsys Birthday" It is a really old book and I love it.
A picture of an idea for it

8. One of the items on my bucket list is to take a two week trip to Asia.  One week in Japan and one week in South Korea.

9. Supposedly I am related to both Queen Wilhelmina and John Smith.

10. I am an only child and always wanted siblings.

11. According to a facebook quiz I am 19 but I act like I am 23.

12. My dream is to teach ESL in Japan and be an author on the side.  I realize this would be incredibly difficult but I still want to.  (Thus the trip to check it out and find out what it is actually like)

13. I'm a Christian: born again believer.

14. Shoes vs. purses. Definitely shoes!

15. I am pretty much a wannabe Asian. *hangs head*  I am very interested in the food, fashion, language and culture. :D

16. I am on the internet everyday.  

17. Bubble Tea is my weakness.  If I go somewhere where I know it is there I have to buy it.

18. Trusting is hard for me but I still put a lot into my friendships and don't know what I would do without my friends to encourage me and keep me strong. (I love you guys)

19. My favorite Bible verse: "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jerimiah 29:11

20. I have never been on a date. Never been kissed. Never even held hands.