Hugs

Happy
Under-accumulated
Great
Special


Okay so that was a fail acronym thingy but....mmm. I want a hug. I got one from Sephre earlier but man, I'm just kind of bumming right now...

Hugzzzzzz. Wanttttt.

Ugh. I just....I just really want to be in Minnesota right now. I need to support my friend and I feel so helpless. I'm going to see her for just a little bit this Tuesday before I fly out to California but....ugh. This coming week is going to be really hard. I'm already emotionally exaughsted and I haven't even hugged one of  my best friends who's dad just died or been to visit my grandpa who is dying soon.

Death. I seriously hate you. With a burning passion.

All I can feel is sad though. I can't even be mad...

:|

-Melina Rose

Missing Minnesota...

I have no motivation to fill you in on what I did today really. 

I went for a walk today. I like taking walks; walks when it is sunny, windy, rainy, cold, snowy, mild. I like walks. They let me escape for a while. I don't have to talk to anyone or answer questions or tell people what I'm up to if I don't want to. I can just plug in my music and go.

Relevant lyric of the moment:

‎'Cause most things true

 
Are simple and complex 

 
So it is with You 

 
What else should I expect
 
-Caedmon's Call (Beautiful Mystery)

I guess the rest of the post is going to be in small type...cause it won't format....grr. It would...... *sigh* [Sorry]

Continuing onwards... 
I miss my Minnesotans very very much. I admit it. I was tearing up earlier. You see, today is Wednesday, and while I didn't realize it until this evening, it is important. Why is it important? It is important because I normally have youth group on Wednesday nights. I love the people there very much and it is killing me quietly to not be there right now. Don't get me wrong, I'm still having a great time here but being alone at the very moment when I am normally surrounded by people who make me happy?....It's difficult to be happy.
I'm not trying to mope. Honestly I'm not. I just miss people. Is that a crime?
On the other hand, I'm gone for two months! I'll be back! I can't move back as soon as I leave! I miss you too okay? 
.....Quite a bit.

Did you know that a human being is supposed to have 3 hugs a day to survive? ......How am I alive? I feel I may have been forcing hugs on you Sephre :/ Sorry :) Let me know if you don't want them okay? 

I forgot to post this while I was still saddish interwebz
I'm betterish now :)


-Melina Rose