YouTube. Now with a free slap back to reality.

"People are always talking about how they want to get to know God. You people don’t want to get to know God! God is horrifying! God will screw you up! He will turn everything on its head. He’ll make all your leasts your greatests and your greatests your leasts! He will make you come to grips with the reality that you aren’t in control of anything! ANYTHING! You won’t even be in control of your own spiritual highs. So you out there, you better think twice before you say you want to know God. God might be love, but love is terrifying."

                                                                                                                                    -Jordan/blimeycow

   While the videos on blimeycow's channel tend to be sarcastic, this section of the video entitled "Get to Know God" stood out to me. I actually agree for the most part.

   Being a Christian, getting to know God, having a relationship with Him, isn't all fun and games. It isn't always a happy-go-lucky venture. Being a Christian is more than just doing "Christian things" or being a good person. It's not telling everyone Jesus loves them, or winning theological debates. 

   Being a Christian really is giving up your life for God and letting Him fulfill His plan in your life. That doesn't mean that you have to be miserable, or that you have to go be a missionary in some foreign country. God has a different plan for everyone. That being said, it's His plan and not ours. 

   We naturally want lots of cool stuff, and friends, and to have everything work the way we want it to in life. God can see the bigger picture. While it may not be pleasant now, or what we want, or what we think is good for us, it is what's best, because He's God, and He loves us.

   So yes, He will change your life. He will turn everything you thought you had under control on it's head. Your desires and goals will be completely in His hands. You will have to come to grips with the fact that, by getting to know God, you have to let go of control. Of everything. Because "being a Christian" isn't about us. It's about God.

Isn't love terrifying interwebz?

-Melina Rose

Tired

As hard as it is and as tired as I am, I force myself to get dinner at least once a week with my girlfriends, or have a sleepover. Otherwise my life is just work.
Jennifer Lawrence

But I like to know that someone is stronger than I am. I want to be able to know that if I get tired, somebody is there to hold up the fort. I like knowing that I can't pick a refrigerator alone. God did not make me strong enough to do that.
Donna Summer

Give me your tired, your poor, your huddled masses yearning to breathe free.
Emma Lazarus

I am tired, beloved, of chafing my heart against the want of you; of squeezing it into little ink drops, and posting it. And I scald alone, here, under the fire of the great moon.
Amy Lowell

I wasn't losing my focus but I was getting tired of focusing. What I was focusing on was becoming too routine, too ritual, not something that was interesting, new and exciting.
Picabo Street

I'm getting tired of answering the same questions every day.
Milton Bradley

"We concentrate on pain because it is our signal that something within us has not yet been worked through. Joy will come later, as a by-product of the work we do."
Dr Paul Vereshack
"Trauma does not have to be sudden and dramatic. It can happen in small ways over a long period of time."
Dr Paul Vereshack

"The human mind if allowed to feel will heal itself."
 Dr Paul Vereshack

Just living is not enough. One must have sunshine, freedom, and a little flower. ~Hans Christian Anderson

Steadfast

I will not say "Do not weep", for not all tears are an evil.
-Gandalf

And with that opening quote I will share with you a poem I wrote yesterday about an experience of mine. :)
It is to/about my daddy.


Steadfast

Steady heartbeat

Steady breath

My tears on your shirt

as I lean on your chest

I know you love me

and I love you

I feel safe

When I'm with you

 

-Melina Rose

I know I'm broken but You alone can mend this heart of mine.

 

I call, You hear me 
I've lost it all 
And it's more than I can bear 
I feel so empty

You're strong, I'm weary 
I'm holding on 
But I feel like giving in 
But still You're with me

[chorus] 
And even though I'm walking 
Through the valley of the shadow 
I will hold tight to the hand of Him 
Whose love will comfort me 
And when all hope is gone 
And I've been wounded in the battle 
He is all the strength that I will ever need 
He will carry me

I know I'm broken 
But You alone 
Can mend this heart of mine 
You're always with me

[chorus] 
And even though I'm walking 
Through the valley of the shadow 
I will hold tight to the hand of Him 
Whose love will comfort me 
And when all hope is gone 
And I've been wounded in the battle 
He is all the strength that I will ever need 
He will carry me 
He will carry me

And even though I feel so lonely 
Like I have never been before 
You never said it would be easy 
But You said You'd see me through the storm

[chorus] 
And even though I'm walking 
Through the valley of the shadow 
I will hold tight to the hand of Him 
Whose love will comfort me 
And when all hope is gone 
And I've been wounded in my battle 
He is all the strength that I will ever need 
He will carry me 
He will carry me 
He will carry me

Tired of living like a blind man. I'm sick of sight without a sense of feeling.
                                                                                                               -Nickelback

Angry Blogger is Angry

• General Idea of this post:
  Don't write dumb stuff on people's statuss that could make them feel bad and is negative.
• No matter who it is you don't know where that person is at and how it will affect them.
  Okay....so my facebook status was just "Bored." One of my friends commented she was bored too yeah blah blah blah. About an hour later someone comments on my status that only boring people get bored according to so and so. I was rather surprised at this passive aggressive insult and simply responded with ":o"
  
  
  Now, I may have a history with this woman's daughter but this woman is also a family friend. I really wasn't expecting this to come from her as I have always seen her as a kind person. 
  Not exactly helping my "trust no one" mentality...
  Soooooo here are some various quotes on kindness:
  Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up.
  It's nice to be important, but it's more important to be nice. ~Author Unknown
  Treat everyone with politeness, even those who are rude to you - not because they are nice, but because you are. ~Author Unknown
  If you want others to be happy, practice compassion. If you want to be happy, practice compassion. ~Dalai Lama
  Never miss an opportunity to make others happy, even if you have to leave them alone in order to do it. ~Author Unknown
  Kindness is in our power, even when fondness is not. ~Samuel Johnson
  When I was young, I admired clever people. Now that I am old, I admire kind people. ~Abraham Joshua Heschel
  and finally what I set my status to:
  You cannot do a kindness too soon, for you never know how soon it will be too late. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson  
  
  
  
  I don't like confrontation and there was no reason for one so I just picked the quote I thought least direct. I did become rather upset when I realized that this person had insulted my friend in the process of insulting me. 
  
  If you are going to insult me that is fine. Go ahead. 
  Don't you ever insult my friends. 
  *anger*
  
  
  Oh, interwebz, how lovely this life is is it not?
  
  -Melina Rose     

Quote of the Moment

The opposite of talking isn't listening. The opposite of talking is waiting.
Fran Lebowitz



To my dear readers: I will try to get you an update soon. I meant to write one (or more) today but I just never got around to it. (To much reading of a certain addicting website)

Just keep swimming

Hey there!

I'm sorry that I haven't been posting very much on this blog. I just caught up with my posts on my other blog. I got up for my 8am class this morning and dragged myself there. In the coming days and weeks I will be experiencing living death. So exciting! Despite that I have managed to keep a good attitude so far. I missed class last week because I slept through my alarm so I didn't know about our assignment. The three people that didn't do it (including me) were thoroughly chewed out. Our teacher can be pretty harsh at times. While the other people in my class were participating in the activity, I revised my cover letter and turned it in again. When class was ending, I went up to talk to my teacher and just honestly told her straight out what was going on. For about a minute she softened and I could tell that she cares. I told her that I was pretty much terrified of graduation and I had been lying to myself. She told me that everyone was at some point or another and it is to be expected but graduation isn't half as terrifying as her if I don't get my work in. Touche. lol
I headed home and cleaned my room. I have found that my mother was right when she said a cluttered room presses on your brain when you are trying to concentrate on things. My room is clean now and I feel like I can breathe.
I have many things to work on today. I have a four page research paper that was due five weeks ago. Don't judge me. I also have a resume to put together, a web banner to finish, and a 3 page descriptive essay. So off I go.
If you click this picture it moves... :P

Just keep swimming interwebz :)

-Melina Rose

Dear Betsy, (an entry in my diary)

March 20, 2011                                                                                                              12:08am-12:20am

Dear Betsy,
I'm sorry it has been so long since I have written, almost a year! I am 19.5 now. 5'7", 126.5 lbs and my hair (when straightened) is around an inch from ending in the middle of my lower back.

I am still going to (insert school here) through not for much longer. If I don't goof this up, I graduate in May with an associates in Graphic Design Technology.

This is not exactly why I am writing to you though. You see, I have been running. Not because I thought it would help; I knew it wouldn't, but because I was scared, terrified actually. When I graduate, and even before, I have a lot of foreign things to deal with. Interviews, Portfolio shows, deciding how I am going to accomplish my goals in life, all of these things just start crushing down on me and I feel like it is hopeless and it would be easier to give up. In reality, I know it isn't. It only would make it harder. So here goes nothing?

In the wise words of a fish:
Just keep swimming. :)

Night Betsy :)

Goals for daily life

I was talking to Sephre and we decided we need to get our act together. Stop letting ourselves waste our energy and make an effort to improve. So here are my goals. These are the things I need to do.

1. Go to bed by 12
2. Get up by 8 even if I don't have a class
3. Eat three meals a day (not all at once). This has to be real food not junk food and it has to be balanced.
4. Exercise every day and get a good workout.
5. Drink at least 8 glasses of water a day (hopefully more) and cut down on my sugar intake.
6. Read my Bible every day.
7. Once I get all of my stuff organized, keep it that way.

A more general goal would be to get my homework done before doing anything fun. 

Fighitng interwebz!

-Melina Rose

Health is a state of complete physical, mental and social well-being, and not merely the absence of disease or infirmity.  ~World Health Organization, 1948

In order to change we must be sick and tired of being sick and tired.  ~Author Unknown

Accomplish something every day of your life. -Walter Annenberg

A set definite objective must be established if we are to accomplish anything in a big way.
John McDonald

A winner is someone who recognizes his God-given talents, works his tail off to develop them into skills, and uses these skills to accomplish his goals.
Larry Bird

An invincible determination can accomplish almost anything and in this lies the great distinction between great men and little men.
Thomas Fuller

Avoiding the phrase "I don't have time...", will soon help you to realize that you do have the time needed for just about anything you choose to accomplish in life.
Bo Bennett

With that I shall get down to my homework interwebz
Fighting!

-Melina Rose

I am slowly becoming more encouraged...is this...excitement I am starting to feel?

This is my youth pastors reply to the note I previously posted that I sent to him.

Nice quote, awesome lady. First of all, in my experience, that reaction is usually the best sign of someone who is ready for leadership. That may seem confusing but it's true. In the Kingdom of God we don't look for leaders who are anxious but rather those who are commitment have a heart for that ministry and understand the responsibilities they would undertake. So... your response actually confirms my pick. That being said, I don't plan on throwing you under the bus. I will train you and teach you so that by the time you lead solo the only question you'll have is, "How is the Spirit moving this week?" I love your honesty and if you remain terrified after we train than we won't go any farther, but trust in your Pastor and let's find out shall we?

....................................................................................................... 

I shall continue to pray about this but I am feeling encouraged even though I am still very ..... nervous? I can't seem to find the right word. Hmm. Anyway, I am interested to see what God is going to do with this.

Current Facebook status:
You have listened to fears, Child,” said Aslan. “Come, let me breathe on you. Forget them. Are you brave again?

Current email status:
Some journeys take us far from home. Some adventures lead us to our destiny. -The Chronicles Of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch And The Wardrobe

I love the Chronicles of Narnia interwebz. Do you?

-Melina Rose

Piano is Guitar now say wa?

Dear awesome youth pastor,
I'm sorry for my reaction tonight. When you told me you are going to start easing me into being a worship leader it absolutely terrified me. I know it is a huge responsibility. You have to be a good role model because people are going to be watching you and counting on you. I can see all my faults and I don't feel like I am ready for that kind of responsibility. I don't know if God wants to challenge me in this area and push me in this direction but my initial reaction was pure stress and terror. I don't know anything about putting together sets, or what keys fit people or any of that technical stuff. I am terrified of being a leader in almost any setting but I do try sometimes.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that I really have to pray about it and are you sure that I would even be able to do it?

"Caspian: But I'm not ready!
Aslan: And that's exactly how i know you are."
— Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian
(it makes me think)

-Melina Rose

Life is like dancing. As long as you are confident you will do fine.

So the night before last was our church formal.  I was actually rather nervous because while at first Bree and Christal said they were going to be coming they ended up not coming.  I don't really know the other girls that went very well so I was nervous that I wouldn't have anyone to hang out with.
It turned out really fun though.  I came in the door of the first location and was immediately greeted by three girls that were already there.  They made me feel welcome and all my fears were melted away like the snow on my toes.
The formal was a progressive dinner.
First stop:
Appetizers
We had mini quiches and those deli rolls from Sams Club. lol They were so good. There was also this punch that they had made with sherbet that was really good. There were challenges at each location so the challenge for this one involved marshmallows. I saw the bags of marshmallows and my thoughts immediately went to "please don't make us eat them."  I really didn't want to have to feel sick afterwards.
We were divided into teams. Our team name was "Super Classy". We competed against teams, Great, Teeth, and The 'stache.  Our challenge? Build the best snowman out of marshmallows and whatever else you could find. Our snowman ended up being a small snowman on a marshmallow mountain.  It was awesome but we got last place.

Second Stop:
Main Course
The main course was amazing! We were served an delicious and very large chicken enchilada.  So. Good. All I can say.  So. Good.
After dinner we had Christmas trivia challenge which I think we might have won part of and then a spoons challenge which we won. Yay!

Final Stop:
Dessert
We got to the last house and just kind of hung out for a while.  There were mini cheese-cakes upstairs and marzipan too.  There was a limbo contest for our last challenge. Do you know how hard it is to limbo in a full length dress? Difficult.  I almost won (who knew) but someone shorter than me had the advantage and took the win.  I really don't mind. lol
After prizes had been handed out an awesome dance party burst out. It was great.  It got so hot in the basement we had to open a window.  We danced until the play list ended and then ran upstairs to get water.
When we came back down we had a bit more dancing and then we all kind of collapsed into the couches because we were so tired.  Some people left and then our youth pastor started a game of The Moose is Ready.  If you have every played this game you will know it gets pretty hilarious.  We played for a very long time and had great fun laughing at each other making the silliest noises and motions to be our animal.
Finally we all we tired and we went home.
The end. It was a blast. :D

Feliz Navidad interwebz

-Melina Rose

To Narnia and back again

Thursday December 9th- Friday December 10th
Went to midnight showing of Narnia: Voyage of the Dawn Treader with DLBPF.  It was awesome.  We were such a disruption.  lol.  It was a blast.  We dressed up like grown up Susan and Lucy.  I was Lucy and I wore my gold corseted dress with my bucklely brown belt and my black velvet cape.  My hair was in a long french braid tied with a red ribbon.  I was also wearing a gold and ruby necklace.
The following list probably won't make sense to many people but it contains what we did from 2am-4:30am.

We went to:
Some random place because i took a wrong turn to see Aslan
Nearbows
B-Rocks house
Narnia (we managed to fall completely into the snow and get soaking wet)
Saw deer and staples
Gotham city
Mcdonalds
Telmarine Narnia Portal
Cair paravel ruins Portal (Narnia)
Train station
Beer (don't worry there wasn't any alcohol)
Moodles DQ
Hissyfit DQ
Bobs house
Water tower
Aslan face
DLBPF DQ
Writes Frodo on Anakins windows
Desert from horse and his boy (Narnia)
Tunnel to the unknown
Australia
Id land
The taco bell (Demarios)
Creep lair HQ
My old house
Bds house
Rj3
Darth Vader's house
The woods Portal (Narnia)

As most people know... you say really strange things in the middle of the night so here are some lovely quotes for you:



Its colder in ______. We slept in the truck bed. Yeah, we just don't have thumbs anymore.

Are you eating Edmund?
No, I'm just.........Biting

DLBPF:Narnia is calling!
Me:I want banana milk.

Why are you completely soaked and shivering like a monkey?

Yes so that is our craziness for that night.  Using over half a tank of gas to drive all over and have a blast while dying laughing and saying strange things.  I love it.

Do you know where I can get some Banana milk interwebz?

-Melina Rose

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Forever

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