My Day Today

This morning I wanted to just get in my truck and keep driving until I wasn't anymore. I felt like I didn't have anything to bring into life. I was discouraged and stressed about my quarter inch thick stack of Japanese homework and the final that I may or may not be taking tonight.
But I wanted to do my duty to the world. I wanted to appear okay. I wanted to keep my mom from crying because I told her she hurt my feelings. I didn't want anything to be my fault, yet I wanted to take care of what I knew was.
So I went to school. I chatted with my friends. I took my Japanese test and got into my truck again. I started driving home but decided to once again stop at the oriental market that I pass everyday that way. I didn't buy my usual banana milk. I didn't even by a coffee drink. I wanted something refreshing, something that would renew any energy I had left. The cool, simple liquid was refreshing and I felt just a tiny bit better.
But I didn't want to go home yet. I knew I needed something to get my head together. My thoughts were entirely too jumbled to accomplish anything quite yet. I found myself in my church parking lot. Maybe I would go for a walk. No, I needed to work on that pile of homework.
"Hey is it okay if I hang out in the sanctuary and just work on homework for a bit?" Our receptionist looked a little confused. "Sure but we leave at four."
I told her not to worry I would make sure to not be there that long and quietly went in. It was almost silent with no distractions. Only the small clinking noises and the sound of quiet movement could be heard from the lady cleaning up from a brunch or something that had taken place earlier.
I got three pages of homework done, consumed two chocolate cake-pops thanks to the lady and organized my entire Japanese folder. My spirits were a little higher.
I began driving home a little after three thirty pm. I still didn't really want to go home but I knew that I still had stuff to do.
But I saw a kid from our youthgroup walking along the side of the road. I knew it was kind of cold out. I knew he wasn't a jerk and I knew he doesn't drive. So I made a quick U-turn and pulled into a side street as he was about to cross. "Do you need a ride?"
"Yeah, that would be great."
So I drove him the opposite way I was going, to his house. He was pretty happy and I managed to keep the conversation going for once. It's not like he had a problem with that either though. He went inside and I headed home.
And it was then that I realized. I felt refreshed. No, it wasn't a magical "Oh, I'm so happy now and I can all these things lalalalala." I just knew somehow that I was stronger and I had been hanging out with my bestie all day long.
So thanks God for hanging out with me. I know you'll never leave me but I kinda feel like I lock myself away from you sometimes without even meaning to.
So, again tomorrow?

-MelinaRose

Long time no see

Terribly sorry it has been so long. I plan to keep up better as of now.

I've mostly working but I also took a trip to California to visit my Grandparents. I've had a lot on my mind lately. A bit to much to put here.
Oh! My birthday! Haha I almost forgot about it which doesn't happen to often. I worked, got off early, went on a walk by myself in a new dress I got, caught fireflies, named them, danced around in the dark yard like a dork, and replied to the posts on my wall. That's about it. It was a good birthday :)

Today?
Today I slept until 4pm. My body just needed the sleep I guess. I didn't go to bed late or anything.... When I got up I started a load of laundry, did a little cleaning, took a shower, wrote a bit, talked to a few friends on facebook, and texted my Daddy. My Aunt came home and I caught up with her a bit, brought some of my laundry up from the basement, and lazed around on the computer while eating dinner. I'm still doing that actually... *shrugs*
It's in the 90s outside so I don't really feel like going for a walk. (Even though I do feel like going for a walk.) You know what I mean.
I just remembered that I wrote a post on the plane to California... (I tried to sleep on the way home.)
I think I will find that notebook and post it.

Once again sorry for my absence interwebz

-Melina Rose

Sorry to leave you on that note...

Also, sorry I haven't posted in a few days. I've been busy :)

Shoutout to Bob for giving me great advice regarding my "Thought overload" post. Thank you for being a great woman who shares my values and doesn't fail to remind me of them. :)
I am no longer worrying about those things (for now :P ) and am much happier.

To Ashley: If you want to know what is going on feel free to email me :)
crazyblondeindisguise@hotmail.com
You always make me feel so cared about when you comment on my posts. I'm sorry I haven't been on much. I hope to get back to reading your posts soon...

I did end up going for a walk that day :P It was raining, thundering, lightening and very windy but I was bound and determined to go for a walk. I needed an escape from my thoughts (or maybe into them) more than ever that day. I came back not drenched, but wet after walking less than half of my normal distance.

Sephre and I have been up to our usual shenanigans. We have done two photoshoots and they were both awesome. The first one was {Black} which happened to be freezing cold! The second one {White} was burning hot! We just couldn't win! lol

I will have to post more later but for now I need to actually go to bed. I drive Sephre to nannying tomorrow early and it is already ten 'till two in the morning!

I fly back home for the weekend today interwebz :)

-Melina Rose

Missing Minnesota...

I have no motivation to fill you in on what I did today really. 

I went for a walk today. I like taking walks; walks when it is sunny, windy, rainy, cold, snowy, mild. I like walks. They let me escape for a while. I don't have to talk to anyone or answer questions or tell people what I'm up to if I don't want to. I can just plug in my music and go.

Relevant lyric of the moment:

‎'Cause most things true

 
Are simple and complex 

 
So it is with You 

 
What else should I expect
 
-Caedmon's Call (Beautiful Mystery)

I guess the rest of the post is going to be in small type...cause it won't format....grr. It would...... *sigh* [Sorry]

Continuing onwards... 
I miss my Minnesotans very very much. I admit it. I was tearing up earlier. You see, today is Wednesday, and while I didn't realize it until this evening, it is important. Why is it important? It is important because I normally have youth group on Wednesday nights. I love the people there very much and it is killing me quietly to not be there right now. Don't get me wrong, I'm still having a great time here but being alone at the very moment when I am normally surrounded by people who make me happy?....It's difficult to be happy.
I'm not trying to mope. Honestly I'm not. I just miss people. Is that a crime?
On the other hand, I'm gone for two months! I'll be back! I can't move back as soon as I leave! I miss you too okay? 
.....Quite a bit.

Did you know that a human being is supposed to have 3 hugs a day to survive? ......How am I alive? I feel I may have been forcing hugs on you Sephre :/ Sorry :) Let me know if you don't want them okay? 

I forgot to post this while I was still saddish interwebz
I'm betterish now :)


-Melina Rose

The lightening was blinding

I woke up at 9:40am and started getting ready for church. It was almost 90 degrees outside today so I wore my new sundress! I love that dress. It was super windy as well and Sephre and I commented on being slapped in the face by our hair. lol We got to church while they were singing. I didn't know most of the songs but I didn't expect it to be like my church back home so it was okay. I miss my church though. The sermon was really good. It was about how God uses our weaknesses to show His power. Since we have a lot of weaknesses it's all the more opportunity for Him! :P
After church, Sephre and I went  back to the house and made Seshuan (spelling?) beef and rice. It was really good! After that we went to get coffee and brought our drinks to a park. It was really really windy so it was actually hard to walk around the lake/pond! After that we drove around for a bit looking at different abandoned houses.
Sephre had to be at work at 4pm so we went back to her house and her boyfriend picked us up and drove her to work. After we dropped her off, he drove us to Milwaukee while showing me different music from bands like Protest the Hero and Breaking Benjamin. We walked around the mall for a while once we got there. We found some funny books and commented on various dumb ads. Then he took me to Stir Crazy which is this really good Japanese restaurant! I had never been there before! We went back to Sephre's house (currently mine too) and realized that we would have to pick her up from work since we brought her there. We decided to hang out at his house but found out the power was down. There was power at Sephre's house so he grabbed his PS3 and some games and headed back over to Sephre's house. He set up the Wii for me and realized he forgot the cables he needed for the PS3. We watched an episode of an anime and watched fail/owned videos on YouTube until it was time to pick up Sephre.
It was raining really hard and the lightening was so bright that it gave us headaches after blinding us! We got to Caribou and gave one of her co-workers a ride to her car so she wouldn't get soaked. Sephre brought us drinks! I got a milk chocolate hot chocolate! We drove back to the house and Saul (Sephre's boyfriend) packed up his stuff and went home. After cleaning up the kitchen a bit I went upstairs and climbed into bed. I fell asleep almost as soon as I stopped texting people.

I didn't feel so great interwebz...

-Melina Rose
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I took a walk

I took a walk down a long long road
I passed an old abandoned home
My shoes, they squished the sodden earth
I found a creek gurgling in mirth
I found two quarters on my way back
I smelled lilacs as I continued my trek
The clouds lit up with golden light
and I couldn't help but smile to voice my delight
The pinks and purples were hidden from view
as I turned the corner to return to you

-Melina Rose

The Green Malt Machine

Saturday was my last day of work in MN and Tortuga and I hung out after. We got some Taco Bell and then went to her house where I talked to Tallkid on the comp for a bit and we watched Criminal minds and CSI. I went home around 3am. (Tortuga lives a few blocks from me)


Today (Sunday) I was up around 9 something. I wanted to wear my cookie monster shirt so I paired it with my black pencil skirt and heels. I grabbed a cup of coffee and headed off to church with my Daddy. Since I am leaving here so soon, I sat with Bree and Christal. Someone from the college I eventually want to go to actually was the one who gave the word/sermon today! It was good. I have notes if ya want them :P
After church, my parents took me out to eat at Red Lobster to celebrate me getting my associates degree. I'm actually the first person in my immediate family to get a degree! The biscuits were fresh and absolutely amazingly delicious. I got shrimp scampi, salmon, and snow crab legs too! Mmmm. So good. :D
After lunch we went back home. Mom sang this morning at church so we had to drop her off at church to get the car she drove. Dad blasted music on the way back with the windows down and it made me smile. I will miss my parents a lot.
I was completely wiped out so when we got home I just went upstairs and climbed into bed. I didn't sleep but I didn't do anything that required me to think or move really which was nice. I watched My Princess which is a (good so far) Korean drama that I started a while ago. After a while, my momma came into my room and asked me if I wanted to go for a walk. It was pretty windy outside but sunny so overall I think it was nice.
It was a really nice walk. We got to talk about stuff that we used to before I was constantly rushing around and stressed; what we are thinking about a lot, boys, life, lots of stuff like that. I can't say how nice that walk was. I don't think I was smiling very much but sometimes you don't need to smile for something to be good.
After we got back, I got ready to go to a friends house. My small group from church was meeting to have a delectable encounter with the green monster aka an awesome old-school malt machine. It was great and I was glad that I could see some people before I leave. I left the party around 9pm since I was zoning out and no one was really talking to me and I just was tired. I said goodbye and went home. My parents were watching a movie on tv and invited me to join them but it was already part-way into it and I didn't really feel like it.
After a bit, my mom came up and asked if I wanted to watch a dvd. I said of course and we selected Ever After with Drew Barrymore in it. The movie finished around 12am and so I drank a couple glasses of water and brought some apples and honey upstairs with me to my room. Hopped on the computer and talked to Tallkid a bit as well as Sephre. I'm excited to see her! We planned out birthday stuff and talked about pandas and tablets and gothic lolita fashion that we both desperately want to buy. She went to bed around 1am and I guess I have been writing this post since then.
I plan to pack, clean, and hang out with a few friends later today (Monday)

Night night interwebz

-Melina Rose

That akward moment when somone takes a picture of you through the drive-through window when you are working.

I just got home from work and am incredibly tired. I can't really feel my legs or feet except for a dull throbbing pain. Yes, I work in the fast food industry. Yesterday and today were our busiest days and they were even busier than last year. We were sold out of many many things. Being in constant motion for around five hours I found, makes you dizzy. I had a ten minute break and that was nice but it was insane, crazy, busy. I had an 8 hour shift yesterday. I was so thankful that I went to bed at a decent hour. *noms on Nachos* Good ole Taco Bell what would I do without you?
I'm still cold. It was freezing cold because the drive-through window was open most of the night. It is snowing really lightly outside. When I walked out to my truck I kind of wanted to just keep walking. It would have been nice to go on a walk. Buuuuuut..... walks in the middle of the night alone (when you are a girl) are not the best idea and I have a bedtime to stick to. 1am.

That means I have an hour interwebz

-Melina Rose