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"People are always talking about how they want to get to know God. You people don’t want to get to know God! God is horrifying! God will screw you up! He will turn everything on its head. He’ll make all your leasts your greatests and your greatests your leasts! He will make you come to grips with the reality that you aren’t in control of anything! ANYTHING! You won’t even be in control of your own spiritual highs. So you out there, you better think twice before you say you want to know God. God might be love, but love is terrifying."

                                                                                                                                    -Jordan/blimeycow

   While the videos on blimeycow's channel tend to be sarcastic, this section of the video entitled "Get to Know God" stood out to me. I actually agree for the most part.

   Being a Christian, getting to know God, having a relationship with Him, isn't all fun and games. It isn't always a happy-go-lucky venture. Being a Christian is more than just doing "Christian things" or being a good person. It's not telling everyone Jesus loves them, or winning theological debates. 

   Being a Christian really is giving up your life for God and letting Him fulfill His plan in your life. That doesn't mean that you have to be miserable, or that you have to go be a missionary in some foreign country. God has a different plan for everyone. That being said, it's His plan and not ours. 

   We naturally want lots of cool stuff, and friends, and to have everything work the way we want it to in life. God can see the bigger picture. While it may not be pleasant now, or what we want, or what we think is good for us, it is what's best, because He's God, and He loves us.

   So yes, He will change your life. He will turn everything you thought you had under control on it's head. Your desires and goals will be completely in His hands. You will have to come to grips with the fact that, by getting to know God, you have to let go of control. Of everything. Because "being a Christian" isn't about us. It's about God.

Isn't love terrifying interwebz?

-Melina Rose

I know I'm broken but You alone can mend this heart of mine.

 

I call, You hear me 
I've lost it all 
And it's more than I can bear 
I feel so empty

You're strong, I'm weary 
I'm holding on 
But I feel like giving in 
But still You're with me

[chorus] 
And even though I'm walking 
Through the valley of the shadow 
I will hold tight to the hand of Him 
Whose love will comfort me 
And when all hope is gone 
And I've been wounded in the battle 
He is all the strength that I will ever need 
He will carry me

I know I'm broken 
But You alone 
Can mend this heart of mine 
You're always with me

[chorus] 
And even though I'm walking 
Through the valley of the shadow 
I will hold tight to the hand of Him 
Whose love will comfort me 
And when all hope is gone 
And I've been wounded in the battle 
He is all the strength that I will ever need 
He will carry me 
He will carry me

And even though I feel so lonely 
Like I have never been before 
You never said it would be easy 
But You said You'd see me through the storm

[chorus] 
And even though I'm walking 
Through the valley of the shadow 
I will hold tight to the hand of Him 
Whose love will comfort me 
And when all hope is gone 
And I've been wounded in my battle 
He is all the strength that I will ever need 
He will carry me 
He will carry me 
He will carry me

Hello there.......if you still even read my blog.

Today I woke up early to go to school again. The drive was much much better than my first day of school considering there was no stop and go traffic. This may be due to the fact that I left 20 minutes earlier. I arrived at school and didn't have trouble finding a spot. I browsed the internet on my phone for the half hour I had to spare before my class.
Public speaking is still terrifying to me but it is going well and I'm enjoying it kind of. Today we had to get up and stand in front of the class to introduce ourselves. Our full name, major, and what animal or vegetable we would be and why. I chose a pheonix even though it doesn't actually exist because they rise from the ashes and I find that really inspiring.
I've always loved pheonixs.
After class I went up to the computer lab to sort out my online stuff. You see, last night when I tried to log in to the online website for homework it wouldn't let me in. I found out that they changed the email system since last time I went here and so I needed to just log in to that. I'm all set up now and have read all of the material for Chemistry and taken my short lab safety quiz.
I got assigned my first homework sheet for that today so I'll probably do it tonight some time. It isn't due until next Friday.
My next class is Japanese at 1pm. I have a two hour break between Chemistry and Japanese. And! I fail at spelling chemistry every time. I always have to backspace and make my e an i. I shall prevail! lol
I love Japanese class even though it is hard. I hope to make at least a few friends there. I mean, come on, we have similar interests! :)
I suppose I should eat something. Sorry I'm rambling now haha. I didn't eat breakfast and it's already 11:56. Pretty close to lunch time if I do say so myself and I rather not be embarrassed by my stomach making loud suggestions in class.
I've been hanging out on here and Polyvore....LtC, YouTube, my writing website, facebook....Yup. Well, and doing my homework of course. ;)
Today has been a fairly good day so far. I'm super tired and hungry but hopefully I will be able to pick myself up a bit and get lots done when I get home cleaning wise. I know my mom would love to see my room clean some time soon.

Until later interwebz,
-Melina Rose

I just miss you OK?!

Please watch in YouTube if you click play. It just is much better.

Yes, I realize my emotions are currently running rampant but I genuinely miss my Minnesotans.

I should go to bed....interwebz
Fighting.....

-Melina Rose

P.S. I'm having a blast with Sephre. I just have my moments. Don't judge.

I was a Nanny yesterday

This post is for Monday, May 23, 2011.

I got up at 6:30am; put on the t-shirt and jeans that I had picked out last night and pulled my hair back. The house I nanny at has cats. I'm allergic to cats. Therefore I try to cover as much skin as possible so that it doesn't itch like crazy by the end of the time I'm there. Sephre and I drove separately since she wouldn't be there the whole time. When we got there the girls were still asleep so she told me all the stuff I needed to know, most importantly how to make coffee. :P She got out stuff to make "surprise breakfast/special breakfast" aka pancakes then we got the girls up. After playing with them for a bit, she/we made breakfast and ate it. They were pretty self entertained for a while so we just took the time to try to wake up a bit more. After a while, we took them to the park and had a picnic. When we came back, we put the girls down for a nap and then Sephre left for some appointments and errands. I ate lunch and wrote until they woke up and then "played fairys" with them. I left after 5pm and went back to the house. My aunt was there and I said hi as I went in. I took a cold shower which felt amazing for some reason and then flopped onto my bed to look at my phone. I woke up two hours later.... lol
I went downstairs and ate dinner and then after cleaning up the kitchen a bit, we went back upstairs. Sephre did my hair for fun and it was pretty :3 We watched Youtube videos of cool science experiments until she went to bed. :P I chatted/texted Tallkid until around midnight and then got distracted by Youtube and stayed up much later until I was falling asleep.

That was Monday interwebz :P

-Melina Rose

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The lightening was blinding

I woke up at 9:40am and started getting ready for church. It was almost 90 degrees outside today so I wore my new sundress! I love that dress. It was super windy as well and Sephre and I commented on being slapped in the face by our hair. lol We got to church while they were singing. I didn't know most of the songs but I didn't expect it to be like my church back home so it was okay. I miss my church though. The sermon was really good. It was about how God uses our weaknesses to show His power. Since we have a lot of weaknesses it's all the more opportunity for Him! :P
After church, Sephre and I went  back to the house and made Seshuan (spelling?) beef and rice. It was really good! After that we went to get coffee and brought our drinks to a park. It was really really windy so it was actually hard to walk around the lake/pond! After that we drove around for a bit looking at different abandoned houses.
Sephre had to be at work at 4pm so we went back to her house and her boyfriend picked us up and drove her to work. After we dropped her off, he drove us to Milwaukee while showing me different music from bands like Protest the Hero and Breaking Benjamin. We walked around the mall for a while once we got there. We found some funny books and commented on various dumb ads. Then he took me to Stir Crazy which is this really good Japanese restaurant! I had never been there before! We went back to Sephre's house (currently mine too) and realized that we would have to pick her up from work since we brought her there. We decided to hang out at his house but found out the power was down. There was power at Sephre's house so he grabbed his PS3 and some games and headed back over to Sephre's house. He set up the Wii for me and realized he forgot the cables he needed for the PS3. We watched an episode of an anime and watched fail/owned videos on YouTube until it was time to pick up Sephre.
It was raining really hard and the lightening was so bright that it gave us headaches after blinding us! We got to Caribou and gave one of her co-workers a ride to her car so she wouldn't get soaked. Sephre brought us drinks! I got a milk chocolate hot chocolate! We drove back to the house and Saul (Sephre's boyfriend) packed up his stuff and went home. After cleaning up the kitchen a bit I went upstairs and climbed into bed. I fell asleep almost as soon as I stopped texting people.

I didn't feel so great interwebz...

-Melina Rose
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I know you aren't dead. What happened?

Do you ever have somone that you like to talk to and suddenly you have no contact with them? I mean, they are active on facebook, youtube, and other sites but they don't respond to you. I am rather confused and really sad. I miss you Sephre. Where did you go?

Lately I have been feeling really listless and a little hopeless. I am still sick and randomly feel really tired yet when I should be sleeping I'm wide awake. I haven't been updating my other blog really. I don't find much reason to since the one who is supposed to look at it hasn't. I know people get busy but I haven't heard from them at all in more than a week. Sorry, I keep going back to that. It is bothering me right now.

I have written two more chapters of my story. It is totalling 11,183 words right now. Woo.
I'm really behind in two of my classes. They happen to be the important ones. *sigh* I need to get a large dose of motivation somehow. Does anyone have any for me? I'm so discouraged that I guess I just feel "why try?" I know that is wrong. I just need to kick myself into gear and get everything done.

I don't know interwebz

-Melina Rose

Dinner Time calls for a short break

I have been working on my typography homework non-stop since I finished lunch at 3 something. It was a late lunch. The thing about this part of my typography homework is that I have to be hunched over my work at a table. I chose our kitchen table since it has more room. My neck and back hurt so much though. I managed to do the hand done work for my Ledgability (however you spell it) and Readability assignment as well as for my Kerning assignment. I was working on designing a typeface/ hand lettering when my mom asked me to clear the table. I am currently sitting on the couch like a tired blob listening to Wishery (Disney Remix)  by Pogo on YouTube. Link
Hopefully I will gain some energy from dinner. It smells like we are having tacos and by the shells on the table I think my guess is correct. I could fall asleep now if given the chance. I don't have school tomorrow but I will be going anyway to do my homework. *sings* Such is the liiiife I leeeaaad. (yet another Disney reference) :P 
Listening to Upular now. I think dinner is ready so off I go. 


BYE-YUM interwebz


-Melina Rose