New steps I didn't know I needed to take

I've never really thought about if I cared about myself more than others from the view that I should care about myself. Yes, you need to care about others and not be selfish but there comes a point where it is unhealthy to care about others more than yourself. I got to that point and I have finally realized it.
As hard as it is, I have taken steps to change this.

My family and friends are happy about this.

yay... :)

-Melina Rose

今日の

Hey guys,
I'm still super busy but I figured if I can make time to sit in my bed and laze around the computer I can make time to write a quick (real) blog post.
Today I woke up around 10am after staying up till 2:30am or so. I'm super smart can't you tell? :P My mom made french toast so I had one and a half pieces of that.
After that I haven't accomplished much, though I should bed. I heard the song I previously posted on the radio and so I got on my computer to post it. It seemed to fit me well. I read a post by my friend, checked my Facebook notifications, attempted to talk to Mnonaa on Skype, checked an art website I'm on...etc.
Now it is time for productivity! Watch me accomplish nothing. I need to shower, clean my room (or at least clear my floor) and get ready for the costume party tonight!
I'm going to wear my thrift-store wedding dress, black lace up boots, black cloak, and then Yumi is going to lace me into one of her black leather corsets. I'm going to be a Vampire Slayer/Hunter so I think I should find a cross or something..... Fail. Well I did kind of just decide yesterday and the party is tonight sooooo. Ahaha. I'm kind of excited and kind of nervous.
Anywhoo.... I also have homework to do. And I need to do it. And not put it off. Like I always do. Yeah.

I think I'll start with a load of laundry interwebz.
-Melina Rose

I know I'm broken but You alone can mend this heart of mine.

 

I call, You hear me 
I've lost it all 
And it's more than I can bear 
I feel so empty

You're strong, I'm weary 
I'm holding on 
But I feel like giving in 
But still You're with me

[chorus] 
And even though I'm walking 
Through the valley of the shadow 
I will hold tight to the hand of Him 
Whose love will comfort me 
And when all hope is gone 
And I've been wounded in the battle 
He is all the strength that I will ever need 
He will carry me

I know I'm broken 
But You alone 
Can mend this heart of mine 
You're always with me

[chorus] 
And even though I'm walking 
Through the valley of the shadow 
I will hold tight to the hand of Him 
Whose love will comfort me 
And when all hope is gone 
And I've been wounded in the battle 
He is all the strength that I will ever need 
He will carry me 
He will carry me

And even though I feel so lonely 
Like I have never been before 
You never said it would be easy 
But You said You'd see me through the storm

[chorus] 
And even though I'm walking 
Through the valley of the shadow 
I will hold tight to the hand of Him 
Whose love will comfort me 
And when all hope is gone 
And I've been wounded in my battle 
He is all the strength that I will ever need 
He will carry me 
He will carry me 
He will carry me

All I want is a hug....but please don't touch me.

 
I'm really sick of society shoving sex in my face.
I don't want to be thought of as an object and all I see is guys that view girls that way. I think I'm losing hope in humanity. I mean, I know there are good people out there, ones that are respectful and actually care about you instead of what you look like. But...
What happened to respect?
I'm sad that the norm seems to be that it's okay, even encouraged, to make dirty/offensive/invasive remarks to people and then that person is just expected to laugh or respond in the same way. People think you can't take a joke, or you're no fun, or you're "weird" if you don't.
Why can't people love anymore? Like really love.
Where are the ones that can?

Image by: Defies

Tired of living like a blind man. I'm sick of sight without a sense of feeling.
                                                                                                               -Nickelback

Ladedadeda

I have a lot to do.
Last night I wrote my outline for my informative speech and did a load of laundry. I ended up staying up until 3:30am. ..... My bad. Anyway school says that you can't be on the computer right now unless you are doing homework. I am currently waiting for a vlog to upload so I thought I might as well quick write you a post.
I did the workshop for my belief statement this morning in Public Speaking and then edited my vlog from NYC which took about an hour an a half. It takes a while to upload too. After this, I work on my New Testament homework and Japanese homework.

For now I wait interwebz

-Melina Rose

The smell of strong coffee in the morning

Hello my dears!
I am currently sitting in Bob's apartment staring out of the window and into the city. It is beautiful outside and I am excited to go out with Lysa and explore. I slept on Sampson Howard (the couch) and it was super comfy. One of her roomates made coffee and it smells soooo good. I took a shower shortly after I woke up and their hot water here is almost instant! You don't have to wait for it to heat up! :o

Anyway, I will try to catch you up more later!

Tata interwebz!

-MelinaRose

I'm in New York!

Hellooooooooo
I got on my flight and ended up sitting inbetween two business men. One smelled of onions and sweat and boiled eggs. I didn't know which one but I did my best to go to sleep despite being in the middle. I only got one or two hours of sleep last night and so I was super wiped out. I was glad to get off of the plane either way. I waited for a few minutes for Bob and Lysa and then was tackle hugged by Bob.  We got on the bus and then the train and then we got to Bob's apartment! She made orange chicken and rice and we are watching Juno. We are probably going to crash soon. Bob works early tomorrow and Lysa and I are going to go pick up the tickets for the concert!

I'mma letchu go cause I didn't bring my computer and I'm on Bob's

-Melina Rose

Panda should be packing...

Ello
I really should be packing right now or pumping out the outline for my informative speech but I wanted to fill you in. After school tomorrow, I am leaving for NYC! That's right! I get to go back to New York! Lysa and I get to go to a free Kpop concert and we are soooo beyond excited! I went shopping at the mall today with Yumi and got purple fishnets (to be worn tastefully of course) and bow hairclips! I managed to not buy any clothes or shoes! (quite a feat) We also got bubble tea and popcorn. :D
The outline for my informative speech is due the day I get back from NY and I won't be in class so I'm hoping to do it yet tonight so I can turn it in early. I suppose I shouldn't have gone to the mall today and done that instead but.....I had to. be irrisponsible and go spend money It was a blast. :D
I'm off to pack and do that outline if possible though so niiiight :D

Oyasumi interwebz. I'm so excited!

-Melina Rose

Ocha!

Ocha is (green) tea in Japanese by the way. :D

There wasn't to much special about today. Despite staying up late last night I woke up on time awake and ready to get down to it. I wrapped myself up in my new scarf and after packing a lunch, headed out the door. I grabbed a 99cent any size cappuccino from the gas station and was on my way. 
I got to school with plenty of time and finished my drink while texting Lysa. Our teacher came to open the door to the classroom and we all filed in and set ourselves down in our usual places. There was a little time to talk to my classmates before class started and then when it did we got moved around. We had prep for our group impromptu speeches and so I got moved to a group where it was just me and two other guys. Our teacher had one of the guys select a piece of paper to determine our topic and it was......sex. It was rather awkward and I was glad when the other two girls in our group showed up. We managed to decide on using the meaning of the word sex as gender after some very awkward attempts at conversation about our speech. It will still be interesting talking about differences between genders, but it is much better to me than talking about the act of sex.
I'm just very awkward about such things. :3

~This post was abruptly abandoned and therefore is not finished~

Kocha - Black tea in Japanese

-MelinaRose