but when you wake up you wonder why it was so strange.
Today I woke up ten minutes before I had to leave for class. I wore the same thing I did yesterday except with a different shirt underneath. My dad had left some coffee in the pot and I downed it as fast as I could before I left. It was nice to have something warm to drink.
First class of the day was Advanced Electronic Publishing. I am just going to call it AEP from now on. I worked on the content for my calendar the entire class period.
I went home and inhaled the left over cheeseburger casserole while scanning in and uploading my homework for Proofreading. After that I quick straightened my hair and did my makeup. Random yes I know.
I went back to school as fast as possible and got down to working on my gradient mesh for Advanced Illustrator. Including class time that we were given to work on it I spent a total of 161 minutes on just that today. If you don't want to do the math that is 2 hours and 41 minutes. I took one 5-15 minute break for that entire time. I had my next class right after AI and so transferred my stuff to the other classroom and then attempted to not fall asleep the entire class. You see, I had been going so non-stop that I hadn't had time to realize how tired I was until I was sitting down trying to listen to a lecture. Soooo I talked to Lysa a bit to try to keep myself awake. Class ended and I went home.
I grabbed some leftover popcorn from last night and then took a nap. I had a really strange dream. I am slightly concerned about my subconscious lol. No you don't get to hear my dream. It was to weird. Yeah....
I got up and had dinner with Mom and Dad. We had leftover soup! It was good. After that I came back upstairs and got back on the computer!....the end?
I'm sure I will be seeing you later interwebz
-Melina Rose
Thursday, October 28, 2010
2 Hours and 15min.............and some other stuff
Today was a really busy day but a good one. :) I got up 10 min before I needed to leave for class and threw on a t-shirt and then put a sweatshirt over it. I looked outside and thought "mm it is raining again........why is it white?"
Yes our first snow was today. No it wasn't what I was hoping it would be like. It was more like it was slushing than snowing. It was very cold and I was very glad for my mittens.
I got to my Advanced Photoshop class and was the only one with my Magazine cover done. I sat around a little bit and talked to people on the computer. I finished my numbers project up and printed it out. Lazed around a bit more and then turned in my project.
Md and I headed to my house and ate lunch while watching part of Transformers. I had chili and she has spagettios. Yum. We left my house at 1:15 pm so that we could run to her house to get her book cover and coat but we were talking so I automatically headed to school. We didn't notice until we were practically there so she said she would get it some other time.
Once we were at school she went to class and I went up to the computer lab to work on homework. I made a couple more polyvore sets and after a bit of meandering around the internet I got down to it. I spent two hours and fifteen minutes on my gradient mesh dahlia. I tried to go buy something to drink but the change machine wouldn't take my five. It was very sad. I went back to my computer and Bob suggested finding a drinking fountain. I did and the water was surprisingly freezing cold!
I got back to my project and then left for home so that I would be showered for youth group tonight. I got my hair partially dry by the time I had to leave. It was meal night this week. We had chili with cheese and sour cream as well as cornbread and chocolate chip cookies.
The word was given first on the 6th commandment which is Don't kill. It was a good word and we split into small groups. After small groups we got back together for the blast and then jumped into worship. It was really good. We had a new song and then the other ones were really good too. At the end they had mercy is falling and Bree and Christal and I all did the actions that we learned years ago in VBS.
I need to go to bed now because it is almost 1am but I will tell you about the rest in my next post. Haha not that you care to much but eh.... whatevs.
Night night interwebz
-Melina Rose
Polyvore sets....lol
http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=24418362
http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=24421722
Yes our first snow was today. No it wasn't what I was hoping it would be like. It was more like it was slushing than snowing. It was very cold and I was very glad for my mittens.
I got to my Advanced Photoshop class and was the only one with my Magazine cover done. I sat around a little bit and talked to people on the computer. I finished my numbers project up and printed it out. Lazed around a bit more and then turned in my project.
Md and I headed to my house and ate lunch while watching part of Transformers. I had chili and she has spagettios. Yum. We left my house at 1:15 pm so that we could run to her house to get her book cover and coat but we were talking so I automatically headed to school. We didn't notice until we were practically there so she said she would get it some other time.
Once we were at school she went to class and I went up to the computer lab to work on homework. I made a couple more polyvore sets and after a bit of meandering around the internet I got down to it. I spent two hours and fifteen minutes on my gradient mesh dahlia. I tried to go buy something to drink but the change machine wouldn't take my five. It was very sad. I went back to my computer and Bob suggested finding a drinking fountain. I did and the water was surprisingly freezing cold!
I got back to my project and then left for home so that I would be showered for youth group tonight. I got my hair partially dry by the time I had to leave. It was meal night this week. We had chili with cheese and sour cream as well as cornbread and chocolate chip cookies.
The word was given first on the 6th commandment which is Don't kill. It was a good word and we split into small groups. After small groups we got back together for the blast and then jumped into worship. It was really good. We had a new song and then the other ones were really good too. At the end they had mercy is falling and Bree and Christal and I all did the actions that we learned years ago in VBS.
I need to go to bed now because it is almost 1am but I will tell you about the rest in my next post. Haha not that you care to much but eh.... whatevs.
Night night interwebz
-Melina Rose
Polyvore sets....lol
http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=24418362
http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=24421722
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Yay for productive days :)
Today I woke up on time and took about 20 min to get ready for my 8am class. I headed to my Advanced Electronic Publishing class and actually payed attention. We talked about our calendars that were due and our next project which is our newsletter.
After that I ran back home and had some pea soup and french bread and the rest the jello that I had made while watching part of Confessions of a Shopaholic. I went back to school for my Advanced Illustrator class and worked on my flower with the gradient mesh. After that I rushed home and backed a bento for dinner. Went back to school again and got to my Advanced Typography class an hour early so I finished my numbers project for that class and assembled my brochure for Advanced Electronic Publishing. My online open book midterm for AT was open at 2:30pm and I took it in less than half an hour. It was done before our class even started.
I stayed in the class room working on the numbers project and my magazine cover until a little after 6. I talked to Lysa and Bob for while and that was nice. I made up a really fun story for Lysa. Twas....fun. :P lol
After that I ran back home and had some pea soup and french bread and the rest the jello that I had made while watching part of Confessions of a Shopaholic. I went back to school for my Advanced Illustrator class and worked on my flower with the gradient mesh. After that I rushed home and backed a bento for dinner. Went back to school again and got to my Advanced Typography class an hour early so I finished my numbers project for that class and assembled my brochure for Advanced Electronic Publishing. My online open book midterm for AT was open at 2:30pm and I took it in less than half an hour. It was done before our class even started.
I stayed in the class room working on the numbers project and my magazine cover until a little after 6. I talked to Lysa and Bob for while and that was nice. I made up a really fun story for Lysa. Twas....fun. :P lol
I went home and nearly got blown away by the crazy strong wind. I wrote a kind of poem about it. Here it is:
As I step outside I am swallowed by the roaring of an ocean of air
I stumble backwards as I am hit by the wall of wind
I steady myself and push forward
It takes me three times as long to walk to the truck
I grasp onto the handle and pull
Nothing happens until I put my whole weight into leaning backwards
I brace myself and finally coax the door to open
I throw my backpack into the truck and try to pull the door closed
Mr Wind held my door open for a little longer
After a while he loosened his grasp and let me pull it closed
I battled the blustery weather and pulled into my normal parking spot
As I once again trekked to my destination
The constant stream of air combed its fingers through my hair
I reached the door and concealed myself from the wind
I drank the soup that my mom had made out of a large mug while sitting and watching glee and dancing with the stars and talking with people on the computer. I am now watching the rest of Confessions of a Shopaholic. I made a few sets on Polyvore and ate part of my parents stash of chocolate. :P
I miss my friends still. I really thought I was going to be sitting at home on Halloween. Not saying that I don't want to hang out with my parents but I normally hang out with DLBF and she made plans and didn't invite me. But I asked St. if she was doing anything and she isn't! She has to double check but the plan is to get free Chipotle and then go to the Arboretum dressed up. :) Looking forward to it.
I miss my friends still. I really thought I was going to be sitting at home on Halloween. Not saying that I don't want to hang out with my parents but I normally hang out with DLBF and she made plans and didn't invite me. But I asked St. if she was doing anything and she isn't! She has to double check but the plan is to get free Chipotle and then go to the Arboretum dressed up. :) Looking forward to it.
What are you doing for Halloween interwebz?
-Melina Rose
Wishes she could talk about it without worrying that it would be understood.
If you figure out this is about you I'm not sure what you will think or if you will care but here it is. You made me very sad tonight. I don't completely understand why you are suddenly being like this. I'm no threat. You don't have to worry at all. But it really makes me sad. I wish I could make you know I just want to escape and see you. See you. Not other people. Yes it is fun to hang out with them but you would be the reason I was there. I miss you and don't want to wait until the next time you come back to see you again.
As the rain comes down
I feel as if my face is a wall of this house
But even if that wall is soaked with rain
It keeps me dry as long as there are no openings
As the rain comes down
I feel as if my face is a wall of this house
But even if that wall is soaked with rain
It keeps me dry as long as there are no openings
Now I am sad. I don't know what to do to make it better interwebz.
-Melina Rose
Monday, October 25, 2010
Convincing myself to go to bed. Because I should.
I did more homework and talked to people on the computer. Lysa made me want a bento box so I made myself one.
I brought my homework and laptop down and started on it. I ended up making a bento box with a rice ball, two deviled eggs, a few grapes, and a small dish of jello. I managed to spill the liquid jello all over our wood floor and burn myself on the lid of the egg pan but the food tastes good so it was worth it.
It is difficult to try to talk to people while cooking lol. I tried but for some reason my laptop was running slow on gmail chat. Just gmail chat though.. (side note: many thanks to my dad for fixing my beloved laptop and returning her to me) Jayne was on gmail and popped up in chat.
Her and I have a very interesting relationship and it is very hard for me to continue staying friends with her. Her decisions in life are terrible in my eyes and I try to be there for her but she continues to bring up things that I do not approve up that involve me. There is someone that we mutually know that I want nothing to do with because he is scary. He tends to get angry very easily and can be violent at times. He has hurt my other friends and made at least of them cry. I don't like him and I never want to talk about him with Jayne. Unfortunately she considers this guy one of her best friends. She continually goes on about how amazing he is and how he is such a good friend. I'm glad he can be that for her but she needs to not talk about him to me. She decided to bring that up and then talk bad about one of my friends. She wonders why I got so mad at her..... How can she not know when I told her straight up what was making me upset!? Gah.
All of this was while I was cooking and attempting to talk to St. and Lysa. It made me very upset.
Anyway I got on to give an update and then go to bed. Therefore I need to go to bed. It is much to late for me to be up. I have a 10am class.
I hope I wake up on time interwebz...
-Melina Rose
P.S. I made this today before going to bed. http://www.polyvore.com/do_dare_to_dream/set?id=24358108
I brought my homework and laptop down and started on it. I ended up making a bento box with a rice ball, two deviled eggs, a few grapes, and a small dish of jello. I managed to spill the liquid jello all over our wood floor and burn myself on the lid of the egg pan but the food tastes good so it was worth it.
It is difficult to try to talk to people while cooking lol. I tried but for some reason my laptop was running slow on gmail chat. Just gmail chat though.. (side note: many thanks to my dad for fixing my beloved laptop and returning her to me) Jayne was on gmail and popped up in chat.
Her and I have a very interesting relationship and it is very hard for me to continue staying friends with her. Her decisions in life are terrible in my eyes and I try to be there for her but she continues to bring up things that I do not approve up that involve me. There is someone that we mutually know that I want nothing to do with because he is scary. He tends to get angry very easily and can be violent at times. He has hurt my other friends and made at least of them cry. I don't like him and I never want to talk about him with Jayne. Unfortunately she considers this guy one of her best friends. She continually goes on about how amazing he is and how he is such a good friend. I'm glad he can be that for her but she needs to not talk about him to me. She decided to bring that up and then talk bad about one of my friends. She wonders why I got so mad at her..... How can she not know when I told her straight up what was making me upset!? Gah.
All of this was while I was cooking and attempting to talk to St. and Lysa. It made me very upset.
Anyway I got on to give an update and then go to bed. Therefore I need to go to bed. It is much to late for me to be up. I have a 10am class.
I hope I wake up on time interwebz...
-Melina Rose
P.S. I made this today before going to bed. http://www.polyvore.com/do_dare_to_dream/set?id=24358108
Sunday, October 24, 2010
How do you feel lonley when you aren't alone?
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Yesterday. Decisions. Change. Time. Now.
It has been two days since I last posted and I have so much to tell you. This is going to be another very long post so I will try to break it up so if you don't read it all at once you can tell better where you were. Maybe I should just make more than one post? Mmmm no....
Friday
Friday I woke up around 11am in pain. It really stunk. I ate a banana and it helped a bit. I mostly just stayed on the computer until I had to leave for work. It was really slow and that was good. I took orders in drive through which was also very good because i didn't have to move around to much. I took some Advil while I was there and it helped but I was still not feeling good. That was pretty much all there was to Friday...
Saturday
Saturday I woke up late again and was still not feeling good. Pretty much the same as Friday except I got a little bit of proofreading homework done before I headed to work.
I worked 5-11:30 again and it was slow again. That was good because once again I wasn't feeling good. My work "sister" and "niece" where there that night and my "neighbor" and them decided that they were going to make up another version of the story of my future with a certain Asian co-worker. They have very interesting story creations. I think I ended up with 5 kids, a baby white tiger, owning a lux strip club, and a 10k karat diamond ring. Pretty funny. We weren't very productive during the night because of it though so we ended up having to hurry up towards the end and get stuff done.
I went home and got a text from Mnonaa telling me about a party she was having but it was around midnight already and my parents would not have known where i was so I decided against it.
I was talking to Lysa on facebook and she went to bed. I looked at the clock after what seemed like minutes and it was around 3:30 am. Crap..... I have church on Sunday mornings. Needless to say I went to bed.
Sunday
Morning came early today. I was in the middle of a really random dream. Something about some people from Lysas school and ninjas and soup. .......Don't ask. Anyway.
I dragged myself out of bed a few minutes after I was told that my eggs were ready downstairs. (Thanks Dad :)) I ate them and drank my orange juice and then went back upstairs to throw on a long sleeved shirt and grey sweatshirt. I figured my new boots would keep me from looking like I just rolled out of bed. I was about to put on some much needed makeup when Mom said we were leaving. Guess no makeup for church today.
We went to church and were on time. I decided to sit with my parents because one, I don't see them to much and two, I would get to snuggle up to my dad. Worship was pretty intense. I finally broke down during Let It Rain when someone came up and quoted my verse.
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
It is my life verse but I tend to run from it. I have been running alot lately. Which brings me to the next section of this post. My current facebook status:
Friday
Friday I woke up around 11am in pain. It really stunk. I ate a banana and it helped a bit. I mostly just stayed on the computer until I had to leave for work. It was really slow and that was good. I took orders in drive through which was also very good because i didn't have to move around to much. I took some Advil while I was there and it helped but I was still not feeling good. That was pretty much all there was to Friday...
Saturday
Saturday I woke up late again and was still not feeling good. Pretty much the same as Friday except I got a little bit of proofreading homework done before I headed to work.
I worked 5-11:30 again and it was slow again. That was good because once again I wasn't feeling good. My work "sister" and "niece" where there that night and my "neighbor" and them decided that they were going to make up another version of the story of my future with a certain Asian co-worker. They have very interesting story creations. I think I ended up with 5 kids, a baby white tiger, owning a lux strip club, and a 10k karat diamond ring. Pretty funny. We weren't very productive during the night because of it though so we ended up having to hurry up towards the end and get stuff done.
I went home and got a text from Mnonaa telling me about a party she was having but it was around midnight already and my parents would not have known where i was so I decided against it.
I was talking to Lysa on facebook and she went to bed. I looked at the clock after what seemed like minutes and it was around 3:30 am. Crap..... I have church on Sunday mornings. Needless to say I went to bed.
Sunday
Morning came early today. I was in the middle of a really random dream. Something about some people from Lysas school and ninjas and soup. .......Don't ask. Anyway.
I dragged myself out of bed a few minutes after I was told that my eggs were ready downstairs. (Thanks Dad :)) I ate them and drank my orange juice and then went back upstairs to throw on a long sleeved shirt and grey sweatshirt. I figured my new boots would keep me from looking like I just rolled out of bed. I was about to put on some much needed makeup when Mom said we were leaving. Guess no makeup for church today.
We went to church and were on time. I decided to sit with my parents because one, I don't see them to much and two, I would get to snuggle up to my dad. Worship was pretty intense. I finally broke down during Let It Rain when someone came up and quoted my verse.
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
It is my life verse but I tend to run from it. I have been running alot lately. Which brings me to the next section of this post. My current facebook status:
"I have made a decision. A decision to change. I know it will be hard but I will have help. I cant wait for SER i need my own." (SER is a spiritual emphasis retreat that our church puts on. Very powerful)
Long story short. I took my love of anything Kpop to far and I realized that I had been putting it above God. It needed to stop and shall immediately. It is truly terrifying for me though because just one look or listen to something kpop had the ability to make me happy. That is bad. I should have been running to God with my troubles and letting him take care of me. So....from today until I have my priorities back where they should be I have decided to cut Kpop out of my life completely. No listening to it. No watching videos. No looking at pictures. No dramas. No thinking about it every waking moment.
It is unhealthy that it would be that bad and so it no loner will be no matter how terrifying and difficult this is for me. It needs to be done.
I would appreciate any prayer you could spare as I ditch what my life has revolved around for the past few months for what it always should have revolved around.
Arigato gozimas interwebz
-Melina Rose
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